Friday, February 24, 2012

Things That Piss Me Off pt. 2

1. So.. I'm a smoker. I have been for too many years to count. (I had my 1st cigarette when I was in 6th grade and never really stopped afterwards.) I hate that when I'm standing in the designated smoking area, a non-smoker comes over and stands by me and starts that OBVIOUS fake cough/choke. Making comments about how they can't stand the smell.. do I REEALLLYY need to be doing that there.. blah blah blah. MOVE THEN FUCKER! I was here 1st AND this is the only spot I CAN smoke jackass.

OH! And what about the comments: 'You know smoking is bad for your health?' or "Smoking kills". REALLY ASSHAT?!?! I NEVER HEARD THAT BEFORE!!!! Gee.. I really wish someone would have told me that a long time ago.. or even written it on the box so I knew that every time I picked up my pack. OH WAIT!! IT IS ON THERE! Shut your cum catcher and leave me the hell alone douchebag.

2. We have a sign on our door that says NO SOLICITING. Thankfully, the people selling alarm systems have finally stopped coming by when they're met at the door by two 65lb Tervuren Shepherds and me with a gun. I think they got the picture. We're covered, thanks anyway.

However.. we need to modify our sign. It needs to also say "This includes religion". I cannot.. CANNOT stand Jahovah's witness, the mormons and any other religions knocking on my door wanting to convert me. Why is it that they expect you to stand there and listen to their shit, but when you try to talk to them about YOUR religion.. they don't want to hear it? OHHH you can knock on my door at 730am on a Sat. to vomit your beliefs into my groggy face, but I can't try to convert you!?

I so want to install a shocking door bell. You ring it? You get zapped. Leave me the fuck alone.

I will see you in hell..(since that's were you believe I will be going when I die) b/c there is no such thing as 'paradise' or 10,000 virgins or whatever.. in my religion. So.. noisy 730am knockers... if I'm going to hell SO. ARE. YOU. Save me a seat, order me a lemonaid and make sure I have enough cigarettes... I get cranky without them lol

Another thing that pisses me off is when they say.. "have you found Jesus?". 'Uhh.. I didn't know he was lost..' is always my reply.

3. Idiot drivers. I think Florida is the capitol of idiot drivers. You see me waiting patiently, with my blinker on, trying to change lanes.. yet you feel the need to drive like a mixture of Mario Andretti and Evel Knievel so that I can't come over. WTF?! Fine.. I'll wait and get in behind you. OH!! But now.. you drive 6 blocks, 15 miles UNDER the speed limit, with your fucking turn signal on b/c you can't figure out where the hell YOU need to turn. Get the hell outta my way jockstrap.

And those lovely people who just HAVE to merge into your lane in front of you, cutting you off, missing your bumper by only a flea's dick to stop at the red light you were arriving at. Thanks a lot cocksucker. My answer to that? I don't give the bastard 2 seconds to hit their gas pedal when it turns green. As soon as it does.. I'm laying on the horn.. HARD and for a long time like "let's go shithead! The light's green! WTF you waitin' for?!?!' as I throw my hands up in disgust.

Yes.. it's those little pleasures that make my day. :D

What about you?? What are some things that piss you off?

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Things that piss me off (caution)

**Warning** This will probably be a really sensitive subject for some. It's not to hurt anyone's feelings or piss anyone off. But I had to get this off my chest.

I hate when you (you meaning general ppl.. or usually it means me lol) make an innocent statement and it gets turned all around. Example: on fb there's this thing going around about how if you imput the last 3 #'s of your cell in a comment it will appear as a name. Like: @[792:0], it gave me: Ekua K. Nkyekyer. So I responded to a friends post and did it with a comment that said: "umm wtf kind of name is THAT?? Sounds like I come from Africa or something..." and within seconds this chick comes at me about it. Apparently she was born in a small town in Africa or something, I really dk, nor do I care. But she's all.." nothing wrong with coming from Africa bro...what kinda name did u want? James Camron?" O.K... from that I took away feeling like she was insulted and had to insult me by giving me a more 'american' name. Though, other ppl had commented and said stuff about their name.. 1 person said something about how she had an Italian sounding name.. but did SHE get attacked? NO. And the 1 that attacked me.. who claims she's from Africa.. got the name Kathryn Andersen but did I attack her b/c of it? B/c she had a 'american' name. No.. I didn't.

So guys, was I in the wrong with what I commented? Was I being racist or something? Cause to me, I wasn't.... but that doesn't mean that someone else wouldn't take it that way.

It's shit like that that pisses me off. Why do ppl have to pull the race card when what was said (to me anyway) wasn't racist. I really had to stop, breathe, and think about what to respond to her b/c I was PIISSEEDD! And when I'm angry, I spout off at the mouth quickly and hit below the belt. So after collecting my thoughts, this is what I responded: 'Never said anything was wrong with it, was only referring to the name I got, that is all. Nothing more.' Of course she hasn't said anything since. A part of me hopes she does cus I'm always ready for a fight.. but the other part hopes that she doesn't b/c I know how I can get and I really don't want to get into a pissing match with some chick I don't even know who currently lives in Canada and I will never meet. She really isn't worth my time or even to be pissed about.. but it still rubs me the wrong way when ppl HAVE to always throw in race.

Another thing that pisses me off, which also goes along with race is politics. I am a republican. I don't hide it, I'm proud to be a republican. If you're a democrat, that's cool. No party affiliation, that's cool too. I really don't care as long as we all make decisions that are whats best for the country. So.. why is it that when someone who isn't a republican finds out that you (me) ARE a republican, you are automatically a racist who hates blacks and the poor? (Most often it has been black democrats that have called me that)

I think it's time for those who think that way get a quick history lesson.
1) Whites didn't sell you into slavery. Your own ppl did from Africa. They would raid villages and towns and take who ever they could catch to trade with whites for our guns and weapons and anything else we had that they wanted.

2) The majority of the black population is democrat. Who freed the slaves? Republicans. Who DIDN'T want to free the slaves? Democrats. Who fought to give freed slaves voting rights? Republicans. Who would stand at voting halls and threaten to beat or kill blacks who tried to vote? Democrats. Who fought to get freed slaves land of their own? Republicans. So look.. republicans weren't the problem, don't blame us. If you want anyone to blame, blame your own.

3) Vertus Hardiman. Not familiar with him? Look him up, there's videos about him. In a nutshell, when he was 5, in 1927, his parents took him to a county hospital to have experiments done on him for money. The experiments were for radiation. He spent over 80 years with a hole on the top of his head, it never healed. HIS PARENTS DID THAT for money. Apparently money was worth more than their child's health. No white men came and kidnapped that poor boy from his family, forcing his parents to give him up at gun point. Nope, they went voluntarily.

Lastly, I get that slavery was bad. People were treated horribly. Some were killed. Some had worse fates than death. Yes, it was by the hands of white folks. But we saw the error of our ways and fix it. There hasn't been slaves since 1865.

July 1862, Lincoln mentioned his Emancipation Proclamation to his cabinet. Jan. 1863 he put the law into effect. April, 1865 all slaves who were not yet freed, were freed. So please.. stop using slavery as a argument. It was 147 yrs ago. No one in your family that is still alive has ever been a slave. Stop blaming the whole world for it. No one alive today had anything to do with it.

Just b/c I'm not black doesn't mean my family hasn't been descriminated against. My family tree is a mix of backgrounds. On my mother's side is Italians and Scottish. My fathers side is American Indian and Irish. I'm a mutt. All of which have been called names, been descriminated against and hated. Look what the English did to my American Indian ansestors. Barged into American, stole their land and killed them if they wouldn't give it up.

My SIL is Jewish. Her mother (my neices grandma) was born in a concentration camp. My SIL's grandmother had her ID# tatoo on her when she died. She (and her sister) were 1 of the lucky ones that made it out of Auschwitz alive. However, thier mother, grandmother, brother and father weren't. They had to stand there and watch them being led in like cattle to the gas chambers. They were only children at the time.

Every background has had their fair share of misery and hardships. But you don't see me going around blaming 'whites' for how they treated my family tree. My SIL and her mother don't go around blaming the world for killing their family and it was a hell of a lot more recent than slavery. (the last camp was closed in 1947)

So, my point is not to 'get over it' b/c it's a part of history, it's a part of someone's family tree, it was someone's loved one. But please.. for God's sake.. stop making EVERYTHING about racism. Stop pulling 'the race card'. Stop blaming everything that's wrong with the world on shit that happen almost 200 years ago. Stop blaming 'the whites' for everything. Stop blaming the republicans for everything. It happened, yes. But it isn't happening now. We have a black president for Christ sake. Obviously we aren't as 'racist' as you claim we are.

That is all.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

More Random Stuff

So I know I haven't made a new post regarding my past much and honestly, I don't know when I will. The more I wrote about it, the more I thought about it and it wasn't a very happy time in my life. I don't really like rehashing those things, at least right now. I promise I will get back to that soon though. Just give me some time.

I do want to add in real quick that DOES have to do with my past. I don't live in a 'small town'. I live in Orlando, Florida. It's big. It may not be NYC, but it isn't some po' dunk town either. That being said, O'Neil has resurfaced in my life. Well, not HIM him, but his family.
My mom belongs to a few churches.. (i know.. that sounds weird.) But it's b/c her main church does not offer a week day bible study class. Anyhow.. she met an older lady there and they became fast friends. Meeting for lunch, getting together to work on projects for the community,.. stuff like that. Well, the lady moved to a new house and my mom was going over there but needed directions. She forgot the lady's number and called me to ask if I'd look it up online. I asked for the lady's last name and she gave it to me and I froze. It was O'Neil's last name. I asked my mom where the lady had just moved from and she told me... it was O'Neil's neighborhood when we were in school. I started asking more questions and found out that my mom's new 'BFF' is O'Neil's mom. I told my mom, she said she'd ask to make sure her son was infact O'Neil... which she did and was told yes. SO.. Is it wrong of me to not like the fact that my mom is so friendly with my abusers mom? I told my mom that I didn't like it and she told me that I shouldn't judge people by what their children do and that it was a long time ago when it happened.

OH! I'm sorry.. I should have a time limit of how long I can hate the person that abused me? Or hate anyone in that family for raising an abuser?

Am I wrong in feeling this way? Is my mom right? Should I not judge the mother for what her son did? I need advice here people.


O.K... on to other things. So my neighbor across the street is a lovely woman. She's lived across from us for about 13 yrs. I've watched her children grow up to be wonderful people. I've watched her go through a divorce, find love again, to be decieved by that man and left broken hearted. I've watched her find love AGAIN and get married to a man that was a good provider, nice to her children and seemed to treat her nice.
The only fault I ever found in her was that she rushes into every relationship. She meets a man and within months she moves him in to her house. A few short months after that and they are getting married. I would have thought that she would have learned her lesson after the man she met shortly after her 1st husband. They went to the courthouse to get married.. they went throught the ceremony. They had to file a paper (I have no idea exactly what paper) for it to be legal. For whatever reason.. they guy 'told' her he filed it so she assumed they were married. A week or 2 after that he had to return to his country (Columbia I think?) b/c he said his family needed him.. his mom or dad or whatever was really sick and might die. He returned a month later.......

With some other chick. Apparently, no one was sick. He had a wife there that he was sending money to and he went back to bring her to America. But he STILL didn't tell my neighbor when he returned. He came back to her like nothing was going on and stayed with her for a few more months. Then he told her he was leaving her out of the blue, telling her he couldn't take her kids anymore, etc. etc. etc. Making up all kinds of bs reasons. It was only when she went to file for divorce that she learned that they were never legally married.

On to current husband. Just like the man before this one, they didn't know eachother longer than 2 months when she moved him in. A few months later and they were married. At the time he was making tons of money working for Lamborghini doing body work. I have to say, the man has talent. A few years later he decides he can make it on his own and opens up his own shop, borrowing $100,000 from the bank. He was doing wonderful until the economy went south. Slowly, work declined, he had to lay people off. To save his business, he went and found 'investors'. Sadly, that only helped for a small time.

The bills at the house weren't being paid. She became months behind on her mortgage, her utilities started to get turned off. They were struggling. He would occationally get a car that was wrecked but the owner no longer wanted. He would fix it up and sale it himself. But where was the money going??? No one knew. He told her he had 'bills' to pay and didn't have enough left over to give her money to get the mortgage caught up or anything else. She started selling off things around the house. Couches, tables, T.V.'s.. whatever she felt she could do without. During these years, she found out more things about him.. and they weren't good. Found out that he was in the US illegally. He had knowingly bought a deadman's social when he was in his 20's. He had been chaced out of Conn. by the towns sheriff for whatever reason and fled to Florida.

So she decides she wants to leave him. He has just been too dishonest over the years and she can't take it.. plus she's going to lose her house anyway. She she makes plans with her son to move in with him until she can either get the house caught up, they foreclose on it or she can sell/rent it out. Before she moves, she finds out that those 'investors' he had weren't legitimate investors. It was the Mob... and they're coming to collect.

They tried to find her husband first but he left the state however they were able to get a message to him. They want their money.. they want him and they won't stop until they either get their money or him. They were so kind to make sure they also said that if they find her, they will take her, torture her and kill her if needed to get information about where he is. They already broke in and trashed the business as a warning.

They showed up at her house on Tuesday. I didn't know what was going on and who they were, but I saw them go up to the door and wait for an answer. I figured it was just a friend of theirs. No. It was them. I didn't know she was inside hiding, I thought she just wasn't home. After waiting a few minutes, the guy got back in the car and him and the guy driving pulled away. But they stopped a few houses down. I was driving away at the time and didn't think anything of it.

Until she called that night. Thankfully she made it out of there without them knowing. Her son is a cop and he came to get her. The Mob guys have been coming by daily since then.. a couple of times a day actually.. looking for them. They have even started to ask the neighbors now. I feel so bad for her. She's had to go into hiding. She ditched her cell phone and got a untraceable, disposible cell. She sold her car and is using 1 of her sons cars and her son has now rigged up his place with cameras and all kinds of 'bad-guy-catching' technology. Her daughter, who just moved back from NYC had to leave as well, I'm not sure where she went though. Hopefully back out of state, that seems like the safest place for her right now.

I'm just shocked to find out about this. I never in a million years would have thought something like this would happen in my neighborhood. You hear about things like this on the news, but never think it will happen to someone you know.

I hate her husband for doing this to her. She had no idea that he made a deal with the devil, yet she'll probably be the 1 paying the pound of flesh. I don't like the guy, but I don't want him dead. BUT!! You better believe that if I knew where he was, I'd tell them ONLY to save her and her kids. She shouldn't have to suffer the consequenses for his actions. Not with dealing with the Mob anyway. They'll kill you as easily as anyone else killing a roach.

My mom's family is Italian. When we lived up north, thats all we were surrounded by. And yes.. they were in the Mafia. I've heard about some of the things they've done. I have an uncle who was in prison for being the 'fall guy' for their criminal behaviors... though he went voluntarily. Everyone at one time or another has to take 1 for the team and it was his time. You ever seen the movie 'Goodfella's'? There was a scene where Henry, as a teen, is setting fire to a line of cars? Yep.. that's what my uncle did. Except it wasn't cars, it was businesses. In some ways, I'm glad I don't live up there and around that. But in others, I wish I did. At least I knew someone would always have my back and things that happened to me wouldn't of. Or.. even if they did, the person that did those things would be a 'missing person' forever.

Anyhow.. what I'm getting at is... these guys aren't to be messed with and she's caught up in it for something she didn't even do. Everyone knows my family was close with her and her kids. What if the mob guys come here? I of course would never tell them where she is... but to what extent will they go to find out? Should me and my family be a little nervous now? A little cautious? To be honest, I am really surprised they HAVEN'T come to my house yet. They've gone to all of the other surrounding houses asking about her and her husband. The fact that they haven't scares me a little too. Why haven't they???? Not that I want them to.. but still.. out of 10 houses, we're the only ones they haven't visited...

Well.. that's all for now. Again I'm sorry if you're disappointed that again a post wasn't a continuation of my story. I promise I'll get back to it soon.

Leave me some advice guys! Please and Thank You! :)